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MAN! the day just gets tougher, doesn't it? all i feel is dread and pain and im not even being cynical. my hands and back hurt i cant do anything but stare at my computer and type blog posts no one's gonna read.i mean. i'd prefer it that way. but still.

i feel christmassy and isolated at once. im the black sheep of the family, i guess. everything i do or say is "no, it's different" or bad or something snd no one even explains how. cant even use my damn AAC around my family because they get impatient and roll their eyes, only to get mad when i cut out the 'unnescessary' words because it's harder to understand.